Monica
This is such a powerful post.
I am not going dissect or analyse it except to say it is a measure of the person you are that your son can confide in you with such confidence and with the knowledge that you will “get” what he is saying without judgement .
Working with families I realise we all do our best how ever that best looks to others . Addiction, trauma , past relationships and adverse childhood experiences- all these things get in the way but we all do our best regardless.
We beat ourselves up when we deem that our best is not good enough .
Your strong faith and love for your family has sustained you through some really tough times . You have come through the worse and better times are ahead of you
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