i see him making progress and i guess the codependent selfish part of me is sitting back going “what about me?” I know he is just begginning his recovery i believe of alot more than just the gambling addiction….i have forgiven him for his recent betrayels but that does not mean i don’t hurt…esppecially when i have to be reminded of it from time to time..i will not throw it in his face or beat him down with it..i feel hes done that to himself enough if not still…but tonite im hurt and lonely and missing him..we are taking steps to safeguard our marriage..which im really happy hes open to… and im continueing to build my new relationship ive found with God…i pray alot…for him…for us…for our future..for our kids…i want him home..not life back to normal…but changed…better…and i know i need patience..and i talk to much …and think too much…tommorrow will be better..glad i have this site to open up to…its so hard not having anyone close by…
