Christmas day is here. So many expectations placed on Christmas. Makes me glad that I was rarely extravagant in the past. My sons were not hard done by growing up, they always got so much from others, grandparents, aunts and uncles, I couldn’t see just buying more for the sake of buying. At least now my sense of money has really returned to normal. It’s not just paper, or for the online gamblers a balance on a screen! It is actually supposed to be our means to take care of ourselves. Something I lost in the heat of my gambling addiction. It just made the reels spin! And it was an inconvenience to run out!
Rambling this morning. Today is a day of coming and going for me. Turkey dinners and presents and time with family. I’m a little sore from going out to listen to a band Saturday night for a few hours. The music was lively and it was hard to sit still.
My mind is not filled with my next bet. I rarely think of it. Which is such a relief. As I dabbled I would have times where I could feel myself being pulled back into that pattern of go gambling, think about gambling when not, go gambling.
Life does get better. And we can keep making it better by not gambling.
Merry Christmas everyone, and here’s to a gamble free New Year.
Laura xo