Thanks for your kind words Kin they mean alot, I really hope you are keeping well.
I am still struggling with this addiction and I need to change things because at the moment whatever I am doing is not working, “if nothing changes then nothing changes” I need to listen to those words and act on them.
I have now finally hit an all time low…….all I can do to describe the feeling is to say “I feel physicaly sick, mentaly about to break down, the feeling of being totaly lost, in dispair, no where to turn and without hope”
Why why why………………………………..do I never learn!
I know I am a compulsive gambler and I know I need to stop gambling but at the moment I cant seem to stop, just for today I need to try something different, I need to get as many barriers in place as possible to help me fight this addiction, I feel it killing me slowly and turning me into a person I really dont like.
Last bet today 8th September 2016……….I cant go on gambling and wasting, destroying my life………I am so tired off it all, its such a messed up situation to be in, finacial I sit here now and have nothing but more worryingly I sit here now and mentaly I am destroyed, my brain isnt working right and my mind feels blank………I just dont know.
To those of you who are all struggling with this addiction I wish you well and pray each and everyone of you manage to find a way out and in turn lead a happy life.
“At the moment I honestly dont know but in time there will be an answer”
Maverick