I am sorry that you are facing all these challenges right now. It is terrible how this gambling addiction changes us. What starts out as a bit of fun turns into a nightmare!! I know from earlier posts and being on chat that you are going through so much with your husband’s illness and I don’t think anyone should judge another person. I know that I believe that with all my heart after becoming a compulsive gambler or whatever we want to call it. I know that there is an organization called better’s anonymous and apparently with that one you don’t have to say the date you last placed a bet. All the stress you are going through right now sounds unbearable. I cant imagine how I would feel if my daughter going for open heart surgery. Keep posting as I believe it helps to just write everything down and get it out.