that’s where the problem lies.
our life choices, although there is temptation we must not give in. we chose to gamble and do wrong, so we must face our consequences.
try to be positive, the reality is to live, have a car, have a haircut, go shopping and keep fit doesn’t cost that much. when your chasing you need to stop.
get help before its too late, then continue to talk and continue to get help. i don’t think you ever become cured, it becomes a routine coming gamble free. do what works for you.