[angie73]

i have had such a long day, just reflecting and taking stock of what i am. i really am going thru a horrible day. reading posts of others gives some hope, but i am scared i wont be successful at it. I really really want to beat this, and i need to. i am too scared to tell any family (i am single so i mean my mum or sister- who would both be very harsh and unforgiving and lack any empathy). i think of them finding out and it causes anxiety. I wish i could tell them and still feel that everything would be ok, but i am not going to put myself in that position where they break me. i think all of you that have supporting family are so fortunate, i wish i had that.