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Goodbye to honeymoon and welcome to reality in recovery.

Dear diary
They say that recovery from addiction was like climbing up an escalator going downward, when you stop climbing up the escalator, the addiction will bring you down.
Imagine to my horror one day when I see myself going not up or staying still but going down suddenly climbing up the escalator. This was something that I did not expect and understand, it was a sign telling me to climb harder.
I admitted that I have panic out of fear and gamble. Gambling is not a way to resolve any problem.