My health was hit harder now when I abuse any substance. It does crazy thing to the brain, some part just switch off and some part that is very dark can take over the control and thinking, it does crazy thing to me. It really shows my limitation as I could no longer handle alcohol compare to my younger days.
Every winning streak ended in losses end of the day. I hate losing and cannot handle loses well, I could not walk away and not come back. Each gambling losses can set me back many months in repayment. I can lose my financial freedom for many months.
It is really unnecessary for me to drink or gamble.
It only brings out the worst in me.
The drinking and gambling makes me feel like someone important, everything revolves around me.
Stay humble keep me safe.
Staying humble include reminding myself that I am not better than another recovering person, I could not handle getting drunk or gambling loss better than them.
Staying humble include reminding myself not to let the person I help feel that I am better than them.
Staying humble in recovery saves my life.
