let me try:
1: it is a fact that you can’t win money gambling, the sad truth for an addict is WE CAN’T STOP. regardless to how many time you actually win you will back again and eventually you will lose all that money and you will continue until you lose all the money that you have access to.
2: you mentioned you need to limit your losses: you are the one who makes the rules and you are the one who can break them or “change them”, you may limit your losses to x amount but once you lose X amount, no one can prevent you from changing this limit??
3: you are saying that you are up i really doubt that we don’t give the same weight to the losses and to the wins , i hope you have a record some where to double check that..
4: it is a progressive addiction, you may have some sort of control now but as you keep going you will lose this control
5: finally stop for a 2 months and monitor all your thoughts and urges. do you really can stop easily any time or the addiction is pushing you back to gambling.
stop while you can, stop before losing everything “literally everything “.