[Monica1]

Laura said on I did it’s post that gambling addicts have lost the fight in them. She is so right on this. Part of what I was saying earlier, how the hell do you get yourself back? I think when you have had so many relapses to lose it all again, each time the fight in you gets weaker. I would think after 62 days I would not be so depressed but there is no doubt I am deeply depressed. It is like there is just nothing there to look forward to or to enjoy in each day. It is all just an arduous repeat of yesterday. I keep trying to snap out of it but find I cannot snap out of it.