Hi mermaid
It was nice to talk to you in group. I can really understand where your posts comes from. It does help to offload it all. You are in such a tough situation but are starting to look after yourself.
Your husband is in a situation of his own doing and you know you are not responsible for him. I can ‘see’ you battling with yourself over the money but you are the rational one and know what will happen to it if you send more.
As you have said you can do no more. You have to look after you because who else is going too?
I hope you are able to do something you enjoy today. It will make your day easier. Leave some space in your head for things other than gambling.
Take care. My thoughts are with you
M