Just wanted to check in. Missing my kids. Work was cancelled because of a snow day. This has been a brutal winter. I have been using this day to think about my recovery and try to process things. Not having a lot of success. I don’t really understand it myself. So many aspects to it all, and so many things that I am recovering from, and so many self-improvements I am trying to make. There does seem to be a subtle shift. I think it is the fact that I am beginning to accept myself for who I am and where I am at on this journey. I realize that I can’t possibly make all the changes I would like. And, why would I want to? Then I would be done! lol So I am trying to accept each day as it enfolds and move on and look to tomorrow as another day to begin again. I find that every day I can find something to beat myself up about and that has been what I have usually done in the past, whether I have gambled or not. I am working to change that pattern because it has been very destructive. I try to begin each day telling myself that things always have a way of working out for the best and that my life is changing for the better. It sounds corny, but when I begin to FEEL better, life just begins to get better. The trick is to feel better when I don’t think there is any reason to feel good. The truth is everyone can find something in their lives to feel good about or bad about. It just depends on which you want to focus upon. The good or the bad. I am trying to find something to feel good about, no matter what. Thank God for my cute, little white dog! lol
Many on this site have suffered a great deal, I am not in any way underestimating how cruel, difficult, and challenging life can be. My prayers go out to anyone who is suffering today. I guess today I am feeling more positive and I am enjoying the gift of a gamble-free day. I wish the same for all of you!
