hi Vera 🙂
on day 6 today and feeling pretty good. Its very clear that i really don’t like myself as person when i gamble so by stopping i get stop hating on myself which is always positive.
today was payday and i got shopping and filled the car and yes it’s tight at the minute with money and i get the thoughts of “one good bet and i can put myself in a more comfortable place” but i am quick to remind myself that one bad bet and i’m on that road again. weekends are the worst as that is when i make or lose my money, weekdays are for chasing my loses or throwing back my winnings so i have committed to work again this weekend. i got my first extra shift in last week so that’s good.
two comments keep ringing through my head, the one that you said about thinking i was ready for this, i am starting to believe that the more i replay it and the second one is when Jonny said to invest in myself which i am starting to do 🙂
do you think that there’s ever a time when the thoughts don’t creep in to haunt us? i see you are leading GA meetings now, that is amazing and it’s so humbling to so others putting in time to help others.
