John thank you for your honesty.
I think your priority has to be that gambling block . It has to come before food even!! Buy three different ones if you have to. It will give u the time to think even if you can dismantle them.
You will overcome this John. It has taken me years to realise that gambling will not make me rich quick but work might. You really must have an amazing brain to create that type of business. Extra money for me is selling a few things on eBay or when I’m really skint standing in the freezing cold at a car boot sale.
Your wife sounds like she really enjoyed the high life. Yes you messed up but what ever happened to ‘ for better for worse’?
You have an amazing brain John. You are entrepreneurial, you see opportunity, you are not afraid to take risks. It strikes me that you need the same attributes to be a compulsive gambler as to be a really successful businessman!
I have always been told that at the end of you life you will be able to count all your real friends on one hand. I think perhaps that is true. Friends come and go. Friends are there for the good times, for when they need help, because they work together etc.
Its difficult when you feel alone but having a little money will give u the opportunity to get out of the flat. You can go for a coffee and sit in a new environment.
I am feeling so inferior to my sons friends parent a at the moment John. I never felt like this before. I was dreading picking him up from a study group but they invited me in and made me feel welcome. However it wasn’t lost on me the flash of embarrassment/ shock which flickered over their eyes when I answered their question as to where I lived. But hey that’s life . That’s where we are at ! What one step can we take today to get us to where we want to be? Do we even know where we want to be?
Do we want to return to people whose value system is monetary. Have we evolved enough to think differently ? Can we be happy wih less? Have we become lazy looking for the easy way to sort things.? Can we wait for rewards ? What one step can we take today to get to where we want to go?