Joejo,
It’s never to late my friend and at 26 years old you have your whole life ahead of you, you say “you are not a bad guy” I already know that before you typed a word, this addiction takes over……consumes the individual………if we let it, I have let it control me for years and still fighting to stay sane, I am 39 years old and please believe me when I say to you “there is only one way this can get better” I will get better I know that for a fact and like you I am sure you will too, this addiction leads us to many things…………….many I have experienced first hand but not the last one……as I am sharing this with you now………
Lying uncontrollably
Loneliness
Hatred
Dispare
Disbelief
Bankruptcy
Suicidal thoughts
Death!!
You don’t need me to tell you my friend as I am sure already know this, I have had good jobs all my life (dont get me wrong I have worked bloody hard all my life) but made good money, I sit here now sharing with you and as God is my witness I dont have one penny, I couldn’t lay my hands on one penny piece……………..I don’t want to bore you Joejo I just wanted to share with you and wish you all the very best my friend, you can change, you can have a wonderful life and in truth whats happened to you could end up being a blessing in disguise, as we wonder down the road of life many things happen to us and when we look back most times we find the things that have happened were for a reason and they make us stronger.
Don’t follow my lead my friend and make 26 the age you stopped and took control over this addiction, if you wait until 39 you might be apart of that last one on my list, I know I am only holding on by the skin of my teeth.
Joejo in short………….”Life is a gift, enjoy it don’t waste it”
Well done for sharing and keep postings, I know you are not a bad guy mate we just have a few issues and they can be controlled.
Maverick