I just handed over my debit card and online account info to my sister. I let her know to never give me my debit card no matter why I am asking for it and that I should only get an allowance each day or week and provide receipts to her in return. This is probably the third time I have handed over my finances but third time is a charm, right? This time HAS to be different if I am going to change and have things get better.
I also found that my boyfriend has triggered my gambling. He doesn’t understand addiction and calls me weak, saying it’s tough love and I should be stronger and that it is stupidity to gamble away my money. We’ve since broken up because I need to better myself and his lack of support and understanding only leads to more self-pity and destruction.
I am feeling very sad and disappointed in myself and my situation but I am trying so hard to have a positive outlook on these steps. I’m only hesitant because I have tried this before and snuck my way back into my bad habits. I want to kick this so bad and be successful.