It’s payday, its only another day though. Like a Saturday, the first day of the football season, The grand national, day, all just single days.
You can get through one, you can get through them all.
It is nothing short of lunacy how we can suffer for weeks on end after our last gambling binge, live in poverty and desperation, borrow money to eat, run out of credit on our phones, sell our belongings just to survive. But all through this we build up a resilience or determination to never gamble again. I was certain of it. But. and it’s a but that I know hasn’t just happened to me…As soon as that money hits our account, the mindset changes.
What harm will £20 do? then just another tenner, another 20. Bloody hell thats fifty quid gone, I’ll double it up quickly and that’ll be it…Shit thats a hundred quid gone….So so easy to let it fool you again.
When I had monthly pay I used to pay my biggest bill first on payday, usually as soon as I woke up. Once that had been paid I felt relieved, the gambling thoughts that might have been lurking were knocked back a peg or two….it was like I’d spent my gambling money on the rent!!
I hope you get your money safely into your savings account..you’re doing really well, and its great that you’ve got your counselling so quickly.
Counselling can be great, the more that you put into it, the bigger the benefit it will be to you.
The clearer your head is going into it, the better it will be. There is no need to be embarrassed about anything what is said between you and the counsellor will be kept in the strictest of confidence.
You have this great opportunity to get your life back in order, you are more than capable of getting this sorted.
I’m really pleased for you that you’ve managed to get through to payday without letting yourself get sucked further in.
I’m not posting as much on here at the minute..but I do read everyday and its been great reading your thread these last 10 days..I’m pleased for you.
Keep it up man. (woman)!