It’s never too late to seek help, I understand what you are saying and you think you are losing the women you love but stick at it and keep working away, the trust will be lost but that can be regained in time, the problem is they have seen it all, the lies we tell, the money we have lost, the way we behave, mood swings, broken promises, lost time, they have seen it all but like I tell my wife it’s not the real me……….however I can only be the real me if I choose not to gamble.
Really well done on 4 days gamble free, keep up the great effort and remember time is a healer, wish you well.
Maverick