As I’m laying here on the couch I was thinking about my own life and how everything got me so far. In a big mess. What started as an excitement playing a game to win some extra’s ended up as a battle for life.
I simply could not forsee this was going to happen to me. Not in this way. I always been good with money management and financial outcome. Never spend my money on things I didn’t need. But they say casino is a devils game. In my early age a friend of my mom had an gambling addicting and I never knew what and why he was a addict. As he would work hard for his money to have a nice income. But at the end of the road lost everything and in hudge debts. Also I could never understand why rich people gamble? Seing all this money flooding away and how much I lost on gambling I really know now.
We were all destined to lose from the start. As we have a problem in our brain when we gamble. The thrill, dopamine, adrenaline and the rush we can’t handle like other people do.
I’m staying positive and having a bright future in front of me. But a couple of questions still do haunt me. What if my business will be successful and I will start to make money and profit. Will I still be urged to gamble with that money or not?? This is what really scares me the most. I hope my money management will be good as before.
I hope and really wish to stay gamble free for the rest of my life. I survived things that others would go insane or suicidal about. I just got to stay strong and move forward in life.