hi Laura, firstly, i am sorry to hear that you are having a rough couple of days,i hope you are ok after your fall, sounds like you took quite a tumble :(.
Things happen unexpectedly that can knock us off our game, become triggers for us to go to our place of comfort which for a long time many of us turned to gambling so well done for recognising the 2 there and being clear with yourself.
something Johnny said to me a long time ago which has always stuck with me which was “invest in yourself” this means different things for different people but i believe it is a good 3 words to keep in your thoughts, not everyone is into the whole new year and making better choices on the 1st January but i always find it a good place to give my motivation a boost without being too unrealistic.
look at the year gone by and see how far you have come and the remarkable posts that you have taken the time to write and motivate others, don’t let a bad couple of days get you down. you really are remarkable and i wish you great things for 2018