Bill Wilson – Co founder of AA define a slip or relapse as a return to drinking after a period of sobriety. A return to drinking is a return to complete insanity. That was the sanity mention in step two.
“We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves can return us to sanity”
The insanity of an alcoholic is when he is physically sober, he pick up the first drink of the next series of drinks and that is a totally irrational and insane behavior to go back to consuming a drug that is killing him.
Insanity
With one swallow, the alcoholic no matter how many years sober is catapult back into the hell which he came from in the first place; that is an instance return to a life of living a lie
Resentment and self-pity
Resentment and self-pity are luxuries that the alcoholic can ill afford,
Resentment and self-pity unless face and handle, or at least an attempt to handle them is made, have often resulted in a return to drinking.
~ Father Joseph Martin~
Dear diary
The same apply to my gambling.