Almost everything about work was perfect for the week until…..
As usual on Thursday and Friday, I was feeling very tired at work but I was still very mindful and was taking baby steps, doing the next right thing, one thing at a time.
As hard as I try, I was still powerless and unmanageable over some things, recovery has never been perfect for me.
Fatigue and tiredness lower my patient and tolerant to people, place and thing.
I was well behaved and never left my seat at work.
Unfortunately, a strange colleague was sneaking around me, he was causing a great distraction, disturbance and inconvenient to me for a few days until I lost my patient and tolerant with him on Friday.
I was serving a difficult customer, this person sneak behind and was breathing down my neck watching me work without my consent. I reacted and exploded with anger for his inconsideration. I told him not to do it again, his behavior was affecting me very badly.
When I was abusing substance and gambling, over reacting and exploding in anger was common, now I was not using but I am still impulsive although I was grateful it is not so serious anymore, but it can still get me into trouble.
When I was tired, my patient and my tolerant level can be low, I can be careless and make mistakes I regret.
