Well I’m going to start by being honest, I gambled today and it was a bad day.
I am in control of my finances and made the decision to do so but it is a disappointment.
I looked at the new look of GT and I have been a member for over 4 years now when back then I came here seeking help and support when I realized my gambling had become compulsive and was a problem.
The damage was minimal and I stopped and now I’m done.
I always seem to have the sneaky devil in the back of my mind waiting for me to say It’s ok to gamble you don’t have to tell the people at GT they will be disappointed in you and give up on helping not only that they don’t want to hear that.
Yes I was wrong I know what steps I can take to stop my gambling completely and I haven’t done that yet, In over four years I have had my ups and downs but wow what a better place I could be in life if I would have been more diligent in the beginning.
I don’t have much more to say this is just an honest post for my journal so I have something to look back on when I am in that “better place” in life that I’m trying to get to.
For new members reading my journal, barriers are the most important thing if you truly are done with gambling. Give up your access to money, your time or method.