[Unlucky]

I went and as usual . I was up and down and up and down . I I had over 1000 at one point with just comps ,  and gave it all back and spent the cash I brought .  I’m steady thinking about how I can go again next week . I know I won’t have any extra money seeing that I spent my bill money last paycheck , there are bills waiting . I wish I could stop thinking about this . I really do . I joined a health club at work , I plan to start working out . I signed up for extra shifts at work . I’m still thinking about it …