I was watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade and saw all the decorations for Christmas. My mind took me to the casino and a gorgeous picture of the giant tree and all the beautiful decorations that will be up right now. What a strong desire I had to be there. It’s strange how the temptation paints the prettiest picture of a very dangerous place. The casino is dangerous to me. It is a place that would lead to my destruction. I want to go so bad.
I won’t go. I can’t go.
Today is Thanksgiving Day and I am Thankful today for the ban that is in place. A lifetime ban because I will need that barrier for the rest of my life.
Feeling a little defeated to know that the desire can still be so strong. I am helpless if I rely on myself. I am Thankful that I don’t have to. I have My God, my family, and my ban to get me through without causing more pain and destruction to my life.
Happy Gamble free life today.
