I want to be Free! Satan is a thief and he has stole from me too many times. He sneaks in and whispers “it’s ok, just play a little, go get some money than quit. If he is not whispering those words it’s,,, “you are never gonna beat this, you are a looser, you are pethadic”. Ugggh! Today I went to a gas station to grab something to drink. I thought “buy a few scratch offs, it can not hurt.” Than i pictured myself scratching away like a crazy monkey. I thought “ if I win a little I will just reininvest, if I win a lot I will eventually reinvest, wether it be on scratch offs or something else. If I do not win anything I will just keep playing like a mad women. In other words what’s the point of even trying. Scratch offs are not even my struggle but I thought about it and they would just be the bait that would eventually lead me to my struggle, “ the devils den, the casino” I walked out the door with nothing but my coffee. Yeah me.! Just a little battle BUT i won.
