I think that my own apartment will separate me from the stress of having to fork out money for his bills or anything. I wouldn’t worry where he is. We would be broke up if I had my own apartment and no chance to ever get back together. We would always have the mother to father relationship for our son though if you know what i mean. I wouldn’t keep his son away from him.
He wants me to show him I care and to help him recover. I don’t think I can do this. It’s complete stress to have to help him. I want him to do it on his own and then show me how he has changed. Is this wrong of me? Am I asking too much?
But ya I do plan on having a nice, stress free summer. I prob have to leave my phone and keep on fb though. Pretty sure he will be bothering me wondering what im doing and blah blah blah. I keep having to explain to him now – I NEED SPACE! He even asked me and our son to sleep over last night. Said he wouldn’t bother me at all. He sleeps on couch anyhow….the thing is, i don’t wanna stay there! I really want space. So im still at my sisters. He got mad that i wouldn’t stay. Said our son wants too, why cant u just stay. i wont bother you. you’re gonna be away for 2 months soon anyways….
so annoying….i hate this difficult shit. i have t1 diabetes too and it is the most annoying decease in the world. ive thought about dissappearing from everyone before….(expect my son) but i care about family’s feelings and would NEVER do that to them.
