[desdemona]

I slept terribly last night as well as had problems falling asleep. I was feeling disgusted with myself for gambling. I confessed to Danny this morning when he phoned me. I had been dreading telling him. I promised him I wouldn’t gamble today. I am enjoying living alone but I spend too much time alone. I am looking forward to finding some work soon, either casual, part-time, or fulltime, which will give my days more structure. It is scary that when I become self-sufficient financially, it’ll be another move away from Danny. I’m not rewarding myself with gambling for losing weight. The reward of losing weight is feeling and looking better. Carole