[Meghna83]

I relapsed again and lost £6000 of my savings. This was 2days ago. My balance is now very very low and that deposit for my future home is looking small. I felt horrible because I left my husband in the living room eating while I did it. Self destructive on my part I finally handed over my last bank account card to my husband and admitted I was thinking about gambling again following my last big loss (I couldn’t tell him what I had just done, he’d lose sleep and his peace of mind over it) I am now going to pay for things with cash only to avoid anything happening again. Cash in hand would not get me to spend it or do what I did (can’t even say the word) I am terrified of what I am capable of.