[lizbeth4]

I need to post everyday and write down what I’m experiencing so I can come back and re-read. I woke wanting to gamble. Horrible feeling! I am babysitting most of the day so I’m hoping the urges subside. It’s supposed to be nice outside so we might go for a walk. I prayed and prayed that I am strong enough to get through this! I know the consequences and I don’t think that I can go through another gambling episode. I am close to the brink of causing great, irreversible damage. Not only to myself but to other people I love. I have to be stronger than the monster!