“We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.”
I lost myself for a while –
“At some point in my recovery recently, I found myself somehow shifted away from trying to align with God to running on self-will. It happen so slowly and subtly that I hardly take it too seriously. It seem as though we are all especially vulnerable to self-will when things are going well.
I have crossed the fine line that divide humble and honest pursuit from subtle manipulation and force results.
I find myself going just a little too far. I find myself holding on to something just a little too long.
I suddenly realize that I have stop attending meeting and contact my sponsor for a while. I start to feel a quiet discomfort that will alerted me to this shift away from recovery”
Dear diary,
I was full of gratitude and joy when I work my Step 3 in the last 2 days. The reading in the guidebook describe my thoughts and feelings, and put them into words.