Hey man, I totally get it. For me that first “successful chase back” of 3.6k was also the most dangerous. It conditioned my brain to think that I can simply use my additional savings to win back any loss incurred. By the time I’d won back a 5k loss 3 times in a row…I became desensitized to the whole process. The amounts escalated to 10k, 15k, 20k, 43k…
Your brain knows that there is a chance you can win it all back. It knows it may be a smallish chance (although previous wins will skew this in our minds to become a much more likelier event), but the main problem is even if we do win it back, there’s a high chance of just losing it straight back or a bit later on, making you feel even worse (especially if you’re an “if only” type of thinker). So let’s say the initial house edge may have been 55-45 but against a CG it’s more like 95:5. You will be defeated in the long run.
You need to block yourself now otherwise I guarantee you you will chase it at some point.