I started yesterday with the greatest of intentions and had a hiccup (as I believe it may be called ), but did not do too poorly on my day two. I went in to self exclude on the last site i was registered on AND I HAD A BONUS IN DOLLARS AND SPINS. I couldn’t just leave that sitting there, now could I? Of course I played it all through and won a bit, but ended up losing it all and depositing a bit before I caught myself and self excluded in what i hope is my last and final time. I am fighting with brain fog daily as i try to deter myself from plopping my butt on the couch and losing myself in the bells and bonus spin glory. It really feels like you’ve accomplished something good when you manage to get those 3 symbols. I miss the anticipation followed by the adrenaline of the third symbol making its appearance. The bonus rounds didn’t even compare to the feeling of getting that third symbol.
I am not implying that working is the answer to CG at all as it is the stress and lack of fulfillment there that got me to start. I know that while I am working I am not on my butt at home so the opportunity is not there. I have been trying to declutter and clean and start new projects as well but have difficulty at this point with the fog. I just want to gamble. I want the brain chemicals to flow and make me feel good and I cant. It’s just like a drug with me. I think because I do it from home I associate the home as the place to be to get my fix. I cleaned out the back yard to prepare for a new pergola I am having installed on Friday and new furniture is coming for the deck as well. It was what I should have done last year but was too wrapped up in cg to bother. I am going to try to get a plan together for the next week. I will try 7 days at a time as my work is a big detractor to me making any personal plans of my own. I just know I need to be free of this monster in the next year as I was planning on early retirement in the next couple of years and at this rate, would be doing nothing but gambling all day every day.
I hope your Easter was good and that you find a bright sunny day for all of your endeavours today. P.s. where are you residing?