[ThreeTimer]

I keep getting waves of saddness over this and my escape plan. My spouse was so good tonight. Home early. Played with our boy….it was hard keeping my plan away from him. Im doing it because im hoping he will pay back my credit card. I need that before i take off. But whats with these waves of saddness then second thoughts about leaving….geez i told my boss today and even broke down in front of her…i was embarrassed….my leaving plan is in action. Utilities have cancellation notices. Vehicles are signed over to my name only. Work has been notified. Wedding party on my side has been notified. Cancelled venue. Etc etc. Its happening and im so sad and scared. Why does he have to have this addiction? Why did i fall for another addicted man….