I have been thinking about what triggered such a strong desire for me to act out and try to gamble. There have been quite a few.
I talked with my Dad about the ban. He was happy and wanted me to suggest it to Mom. I already have. We talked about jackpots and times he went to casinos. My parents were high rollers for several years before my Dad put a stop to it. He likes to gamble but doesn’t because of Mom’s addiction. They are planning a cruise in Feb. And got a huge comp. Because of the gambling they both did on their last cruise in Dec 2013. (Triggers here for me)
I spent a lot of money on Christmas. Just the act of spending like that seemed like a trigger.
I bought that scratch off ticket and then bought another a few days later.
I had cash in my purse! Got to change that. I am monumentally in debt, but have to save some to make some big pay payments and that takes determination and patience. I have very little of either.
No gambling today. Going to church andthen home safe away from temptation. I feel like I am starting over in recovering my desire to stay away from gambling. I can’t believe how easily I lost my resolve. I hate that I have this addiction!!!
