[icandothis]

I have been going along pretty well lately. Then, today, I paid some bills. The damage from my September craziness still there online. The shame and guilt comes flooding back. Along with the desire to gamble. I took out of our savings. Always there to see because there is no more to take out and we never put anything back in. I wish I hadn’t done it. Can’t believe I did, even now. How long will the past haunt me?
That is why I came on this thread. I didn’t gamble today. I have had such big urges. I have been thinking about gambling tomorrow. I can give lots of reasons why I want to. But, here I am pledging not to gamble tomorrow. For now that is all I can do.