I have alot things going thru my mind these days. Been thinking of my life growing up as a kid. Wishing i could go back to that time and stay there forever. Never imagined i would end up a c.g. Even knowing that addiction runs in my family. I been really focusing on all the things that my gambling and co-dependency has affected. Besides hurting my family, it affected my relationship with my best forever friend online. We were never separated when on line then my gambling, co-dependency and suicide attempt ruined it. We still email each other and are facebook friends but it will never be the same and i still miss her to this day. Just for today i will try and not gamble on the fake slots. I will work on being more positive today as well. Lately i feel like everytime i share I burden people. I think saying i am good is the way to go even if it is a lie. Charles sorry i did not share this in group but like i said feel like i burden everyone.
