nobody would judge you for not going and i totally get that about not wanting to face people, you know it’s ok to feel sorry for yourself and just let go, it won’t last forever. sometimes it’s ok to not play recovery by the rules.
i can’t imagine what this ongoing saga with bailiffs is doing to your overall well being as i was in much lesser situation that had me feeling hopeless with no way out, whatever happens on the money front, once it is sorted and the bailiffs stop then you will see an improvement in your general well being.
emotions are very physical, i can’t access mine, i came out of therapy on Tuesday and instantly i felt like i had sucking sand through a straw, the headache was immediate, i felt sick and could have laid down in the road and slept ( you’ll be glad to hear that i didn’t) it was like my body wanted to shut down so it could try and expel what it thought was poison, so it can be very physical and it feels like shit right now but have Bailey on the bed with you, you’ll be surprised how his very presence helps
