I had preoccupied my time with extra shifts , which was effective at the time . However I have been so exhausted from all the extra work and lack of sleep . I had the night off last night and after a few hours of sleep I went to the casino yesterday . I spent comp dollars and some cash I had on me , but didn’t touch my debit card, probably because my husband gets alerts the second it’s used . This. Morning however I spent some money I had saved aside . It wasn’t much but any amount is too much right now ! I’m disappointed in myself but even more disturbing I was more upset that I didn’t win . I’m sick and I know it , I’m going to exclude this week I think , but I’m very anxious about it . My husband knew I was going to the casino and didn’t say anything about it he said our bills were paid this week so , if it is what makes me happy . I came home and also reinstalled one of my play casino games I had deleted because I was ordering coins on it . I used up the free coins and deleted it , but feeling sick to my stomach . I can’t work every night . I work 12-14 hour shifts overnight and I have a teen daughter I need to pick up from school , which means interrupted sleep . But I’ve got to Do something , I feel defeated .
