I can relate to your whole story, although mine is a much smaller amount, it still has affected me the same way it has you.
I come to the end of chasing my losses yesterday, and signed up to here. When I think about my losses I have come on here to read your other people’s stories, and help me feel at somewhat at ease.
To help me at night, as like you that’s when it was affecting me most too.. I have been watching documentaries, or interesting & funny films. It’s better to trick your brain into falling asleep rather tossing and turning in bed with your own thoughts.
I can see you haven’t been on here for a while, How are you feeling?