Hi Raymond, I can totally relate to your post…. I have been struggling for years and have had maybe 3 months at the longest without gambling and I never put any barriers in place or talked to anyone, talk about pain and suffering!
The last time I placed a bet which was 8 days ago, I lost 2000…it was craziness and I was like a demon wanting to get my money back, but when I got home I was ready to burst, I told my husband and the was some instant relief.
I caught in your post that you can not confide in anyone and if you find relief posting on here that’s great but sometimes talking face to face with someone is powerful, I guess it was for me. I have now surrendered to the fact that my money is gone, never to be won back.
You went 18 months and that is an inspiration to me, it must take a lot strength and courage, and you give me hope that it can be done!