I came too close to gambling today! My Mom and I went to the gym and she put the keys to the lock in the locker. No big deal. I asked the woman in the office for a bolt cutter. We cut the lock off but the locker was jammed. We had to wait for the maintenance man to arrive as he had more tools. So I worked out till he arrived and was able to get it opened. While this was going on my Mom freaked out. She screamed and belittled me in front of everyone. She didn’t like the way I was looking at her. She told me that I make plenty of mistakes, etc. I asked her to stop but that only fueled her rage. I couldn’t get away from her. She made a fool of herself and made everyone feel uncomfortable. I dropped her off at her home. I came home and decided to go to the casino. I was getting ready when my oldest Daughter text me saying she loved me. Within 5 minutes my youngest Daughter text me the same thing. Coincidence? No, I believe that it was a sign for me to remember what is important in my life. It stopped me from gambling!!! I am at my wits end with my Mom. She makes me miserable. It isn’t fun doing anything with her. I can’t win. I bought fresh salmon and made a great dinner and took it to her yesterday. She is so unappreciative that I don’t want to do anything for her. No one wants to be around her. There is no talking to her about this as she never takes any responsibility for her actions. How can someone be so miserable? I can’t let her take me down.
