I just read your testimony and i must say you got support and help from your who love you. Please bro be thankful. Keep this journal on your progress each day and continue on this journey of self worth. Seek counsel from a therapist in your area.
I encourage you to look at Santo Rolon Jr.aka Soldiers of Self Mastery youtube videos. He inspire me as well. Thank you for letting the words of positivity flow through you. You got your new life from this day onwards. I do listen to music my playlist is linkin park and i am relating to every lyric that is sung cause of what was done. The emotional trauma cause by this habit. I am rooting for you brother. You are gonna overcome this. Keep positive and stay strong as well.