I am the same way, I will not throw money away anywhere but a casino. It’s crazy!!!! I also know what it feels like to just want to die. I wish I had some words to ease what you are going threw. I don’t. However we gave enough of our money,time and ourselves this evil addiction. Ending your life would just be an easy way out and your pain may or may not go away but why hurt your family?? I promise there is a way out. It will just take some time and hard work. You made the first step by coming here. Read as much as you can and put up as many road blocks to keep you from gambling and slowly but surely things will improve. Hang in there. I will be praying for you.
