I am so happy to see your post cat! I do forgive myself for gambling. I haven’t had any problems with cash in the past. I was feeling down and I let the urges take over. I have been weepy today. I have thought of my Husband all day. You are right, he would tell me to let go and move on. Just really sucks as I thought we would grow old together. I am ashamed that I griped about the little things he did that irritated me. I wish he was here irritating me right now. We knew everything about each other. No secrets! I knew that I was loved unconditionally. I don’t think that I will find that kind of relationship again. So I need to realize that and accept it. I know the things that I need to do to make my life more fulfilling. I am just stuck mentally right now. Thanks again cat! Your words have really helped me see things differently. I will forgive myself but put more barriers in place so I don’t gamble again. My Husband is my Guardian Angel! That does bring me peace.
