I am home now for 4 1/2 days. Home sweet home! My Grandson’s birthday party was awesome. All the kids invited showed up and their families. He is a lucky boy to have so many friends! The food, cake, and company was great!! I am going to relax tomorrow and to some things around the house and yard the other days I am here. My Grandson pointed out to me that this is the first birthday without his Papa. I remember last year, he was in the hospital on my Grandson’s birthday and my Daughter postponed his party till my Husband was able to attend. It was raining that day and my Husband had to use a walker to get around. He told me that this would be the last birthday of his that he would attend and he was right! My Daughter said there has been a lot of firsts, birthdays, holidays, ect.. for us to get through but that we were getting through them the best we can and that we were moving forward. Honestly, it is getting easier getting through the days but there are still moments of sadness and times that I wished he was here with me. I guess that is normal. Someone at the party asked me when I was going to join a group and maybe start dating. I told her I wasn’t ready to date yet. I know she meant well because she doesn’t want me to be alone but it hurt a little as I can’t see myself with someone else at this point. Maybe down the road. I’m taking one day at a time.
