I am glad you came to realise that Everything you do affects your husband. When I gambled all I could think about was my husband and how I would feel if he had done that to me. I would have felt betrayed, let down and uncared for.
honestly, my advice to you would be draw the line. I myself inherited some money which enabled me to gamble away a large chunk of it. I am now living with the consequences of that and am not proud of my actions.
draw a line under all your losses and take your recovery seriously