I am glad i can support you in some way.
Your experience is quite similar to mine in that I also gambled since my last post. Lost some money though but got a litll of it back. But overall lost more than I could afford to. It was inevitable that I would walk away a loser In this illusion called gambling.
On the plus side my urges to gamble have weakened and I have now started to account for the money I have played away. I don’t want to lose anymore and have placed restrictions now to stop once and for all.
i remain optimistic and looking forward to returning to work and earning money again