I am amazed at how my money has stretched -I am surviving on a quite a limited amount . It does make me think how good life could be with my full wages each month.
It seems to silly to spend the whole month worrying about money just so I can gamble . I have been watching every penny and foolishly , sometimes when I think I cannot afford a Sunday roast , I can within minutes convince myself that I can manage without another £50 if I try my luck ! How mixed up my brain is !
I feel so disappointed in myself – in my looks , my weight, my finances , my home , my career – just about everything .
How can I put one bad decade behind and start to get my life back- where should I start? – it is all so overwhelming !
I guess I could start with not gambling !